It’s May 28, and I’m here for an update for a month of wearing my hair curly.
Long story short, this month was a total and utter failure in the challenge department, yet a huge learning experience, and one I’m actually pretty happy with. I lasted roughly 4 days of wearing my hair curly before my husband looked at me and said “you are sad and angry, please go straighten your hair”.
In the past 2 years I’ve gained a little bit of weight, which makes me feel self-conscious. Add in that my hair is still pixie length, and all in all I felt like the blond kid from Bad Santa. If you don’t know what he looks like, I’ll give you a moment to Google it. That’s where I am with that. I spent 4 days avoiding looking at myself in a mirror, crying, and feeling like a stranger in my own body.
I wanted to rock the curly hair for a month, I really did. But I realized it was more important to feel good about myself, and at this point, I just didn’t. Completing a monthly challenge isn’t about doing something every day even if I’m hating it, and it’s upsetting. It’s about improving myself, and growing as a person, and this month it seemed to do the opposite.
I’m still pretty committed to living the curly girl life, but I think my hair just needs a little more length for me to not feel so self-conscious about it.
And while I’m chalking up the month as a “failure” of what I set out to do, I’m viewing it as a win of being aware of why it was a failure, and letting myself feel comfortable with something instead of forcing something that right now just isn’t me.