Month: May 2019

It’s May 28, and I’m here for an update for a month of wearing my hair curly.

Long story short, this month was a total and utter failure in the challenge department, yet a huge learning experience, and one I’m actually pretty happy with. I lasted roughly 4 days of wearing my hair curly before my husband looked at me and said “you are sad and angry, please go straighten your hair”.

In the past 2 years I’ve gained a little bit of weight, which makes me feel self-conscious. Add in that my hair is still pixie length, and all in all I felt like the blond kid from Bad Santa. If you don’t know what he looks like, I’ll give you a moment to Google it. That’s where I am with that. I spent 4 days avoiding looking at myself in a mirror, crying, and feeling like a stranger in my own body.

I wanted to rock the curly hair for a month, I really did. But I realized it was more important to feel good about myself, and at this point, I just didn’t. Completing a monthly challenge isn’t about doing something every day even if I’m hating it, and it’s upsetting. It’s about improving myself, and growing as a person, and this month it seemed to do the opposite.

I’m still pretty committed to living the curly girl life, but I think my hair just needs a little more length for me to not feel so self-conscious about it.

And while I’m chalking up the month as a “failure” of what I set out to do, I’m viewing it as a win of being aware of why it was a failure, and letting myself feel comfortable with something instead of forcing something that right now just isn’t me.

May has been my least pleasant month to date, and the one I was looking forward to the least, but figured I really needed. May’s challenge is to not straighten my hair.

I know to most people this might seem ridiculous, but if you’re a curly girl who struggles, you get it. I never feel quite comfortable with curly hair, like I’m not ready, and going out to start my day half finished. I don’t feel sleek and put together until my hair is sleep and put together. For me, that means straight.

 

So what better way than to throw myself totally out of my comfort zone than to let it go wild for 30 days. This is especially nerve wracking for me this month because of how short it is.

It’s been 8 days, and I’m not going to lie, last Saturday my husband looked at me and said “Please straighten your hair, your curls make you sad and angry.” I believe at this point I was near tears talking about how I felt like a curly potato with legs. Don’t ask me to explain this, just go with it. So I straightened it, and it’s been straight for the past few days.

I washed it yesterday, then let it air dry with absolutely no product, and wore a hat for a few hours. The outcome was actually not terrible (please see above) and although I felt a little nuts, I def just went with it this morning again and didn’t touch it.

Today while showering I thought “I really said I’d try this, so try it.” I’m typing this once again, with curls.

Hi there! It’s sure been awhile! I was so busy not eating sugar and working in the yard that I didn’t even glance at this blog for 2 months. Which isn’t really the point of this blog, so I’m back, and ready to rock.

March was no sugar, which went phenomenally well! I felt great, ate great, and was pretty much changing my life. Then April started, and I had a soda. Then some cookies. And before I knew it, my March progress was a distant memory. However, there is silver lining to this. At the grocery store I’m still checking sugar content, and choosing lower and healthier options. I’m limiting soda, and eating LESS cookies. So while I’m still indulging, I’m slowly but surely leaning towards making permanent changes to how I’m eating. My favorite March moment was finding a sugar free, edible cookie dough recipe, that I’m still making in May. Yes, I haven’t even had the real thing in two months because I like this one so much! March is a total WIN for this year.

April was my favorite month to date. My April goal was simply to get out into the yard, and get out into the yard I did. I ended up finishing the landscaping, planting, and mulching of our entire front yard, move a fire pit, get a tree cut down, and start on the backyard. I’ve found a newfound love of working in the yard, and am still continuing on even after April. I think the most important thing I learned in April was that it doesn’t matter if you’re unsure of what you’re doing, just get out there and start.